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1. What is the geekiest part of your music collection?
Richard Marx...I'm pretty sure I'm the only 20 year old who knows who he is

2. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
The Fox and the Hound

3. What is the last item you purchased?
Howie Day CD? I don't remember!

4. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments?
playing with my rings

5. Do you know anyone famous?
my dad's uncle played hockey for the hershey bears...does that count?

6. Favorite starbucks drink?
Carmel Apple Cider

7. What stickers do you have on your car, if any?
no car=no stickers

8. Describe your bed:
big...purple and full of cat hair :oP

9. Are you spontaneous or planned?
planned out...being spontaneous and I don't go together

10. Who would play you in a movie?
I dunno...I'd say Sandra Bullock cause she's my favorite but who knows

11. Do you know how to play poker?
kinda

12. What do you miss most about being a kid?
the biggest worry was why we didn't have cookies in the cupboard

13. Are you happy with your given name?
ehhh...it's not so bad

14. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?
a lot!

15. What color is your bedroom?
pink...eww

16. What was the last song you were listening to?
Chariot- Gavin DeGraw

17.Ever been in a play?
I was Litte Red Riding Hood in 4th grade! And I held up a blow up globe at the 7th grade show. That was my star debut :oP

18. Have you ever been in love?
can't say that I have

19. Do you talk a lot?
depends on who it is

21. Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
when they stare in the car...yes.

23. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends?
ummm...I spend time with my friend's boyfriend...how's that?

24. What is your ideal marriage location?
outside in the springtime when the trees have buds on them

25. Favorite fabric?
the fabric they use for those squishy pillows...i think it's polyester.

26. Something you love and hate?
being alone

27. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?
depends on who it is

28. What's the one language you want to learn?
Italian...so i can understand my relatives when they try to talk to me!

29. How do you eat an apple?
with peanut butter!

31. Do you have tattoos?
nope

32. What's one trait you hate in a person?
lying

34. What do you cook the best?
mashed potatoes and pseudo Viola's subs (little sub shop in Niagara Falls)

35. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in??
belnd in

36. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
I'll pass thanks

37. What kind of books do you like to read?
I just finished all 6 Harry Potter books. I'll tell ya, life after Harry is pretty rough ;o)

38. If you won the lottery, what would you do?
give it to Le Moyne so I can have my soul back!

39.Have you ever shot a gun?
yea...a water gun

40.What's your status?
...

Current Mood:	exhausted
Current Music:	Fuzzy 93Q...we <3 Oswego :oP

Went home for Rissa's wedding and Mema's 50th wedding anniversary party at the beginning of the month. I don't think I could have asked for a better weekend. My family knows how to have a good time! :oD Maybe a little too much as I lost my voice for 4 days but hey, it was fun anyway!

I was contemplating calling it quits on this whole thing, but then...I remembered that 2 of my favorite people in the world are in North Carolina and we need to keep in touch! So update Miss Lisa!!

Once upon a time, I swore to myself that I wasn't going to get caught up in this whole 'Harry Potter' ordeal. I lied. Jessi got the boxset of 1-5 and I read them all...in a span of 2 weeks. Now I'm on the 6th one and I have to come clean. I'm totally addicted. That woman is a genius!! My favorite by far is number 4 and the movie is going to be amazing!! I just wish Jessi didn't have such a big mouth...cause I know more than I should and I feel like I'm going to tear the book apart in anger! Ummm...yea so getting paid to read Harry Potter isn't all that bad :oP I just don't know what I'm goingto read after I'm done with it!

I have successfully passed on my strawberry dipping skills to my apprentice Migelina Caresse. Wednesday we bought 4 things of strawberries and 2 things of dipping chocolate and did that allllll night. The result: 4 cookie sheets of chocolate covered strawberries. It was wonderful!

Speaking of...I think I've spent more time with that girl the past week then I've ever have with someone in a very long time. We just get in her car...and drive randomly to places and buy things. Our next adventure involves a bandana and quesadillas. Should be a good time!

And on that note...Harry's calling my name again :oP

Current Mood:	eating
Current Music:	Trying- Lifehouse

Let's see...I've been working. That about covers it. I get up at 4:45 in the morning and do mindless stuff all day until 3. It's not bad but it kinda puts a damper on my tan...and a social life. And by that I mean I stalk people on facebook for entertainment...and talk to myself an awful lot. I'm not sure if that's healthy or not. Any ideas?

Other than that, life is pretty boring. I'm going home again this weekend for my cousin Deanna's graduation party then next weekend is my other cousin's wedding and my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary party so that should be fun.

On the brighter side of things, Jessi got into UB medical school so Dad's currently looking for a car for her that has cruise control. Her escort doesn't so that means they have no choice but to give it to me! :oD So I might be goin' back to Le Moyne with a car...that makes me smile.

Ummmm, yea so that's about all I have. Me and my favoritest Kate ever are supposed to go on a date some time...and I went to get ice cream with Emily and Ashley who single-handedly drove us around in a circle trying to find my house lol. It was good to catch up.

Catch you kids later!

Current Mood:	bored
Current Music:	Pink and Black- Tyler Hilton

“Fairy Tales”

On behalf of every little girl
Looking for her Prince Charming
Let me be the first to say
STOP
There’s a reason why Prince Charming’s in Fairy Tales
Because that’s the
Only place
You’ll find him

Fairy tales, that’s just a bunch of lies
A life that perfect is just laughable
Little blue fairies don’t grant wishes
Fairy Godmothers don’t really turn pumpkins into coaches

Honestly, who ever heard of a
‘Happily Ever After’ anyway?
No one’s ever that happy
There’s no running off into the sunset
On a white horse with the
W
I
N
D
Blowing in your hair away from your face

Prince Charming isn’t real
Happily ever afters don’t exist
And Fairy Tales don't come true

Thank you and have a nice day. :oP

Current Mood:	bored
Current Music:	Honesty- Billy Joel

Christmas was wonderful! Santa brought me a DVD player! :o) I'm pretty sure that my family doesn't understand the meaning of the words 'too many cookies'. If you ever want 1 or fifty, stop on by, chances are they'll still be here.

Probably going to the aunt's house for New Years and I have to say that I'm way less than thrilled. Or I don't want to go at all. Because I hate my cousin's friends and I hate being holed up in one room so that their drunken asses can take over the whole house. I guess it's a good thing that I won't talk to them, otherwise things could get ugly

Well kids, have a great New Years!

<3
Me!

Current Mood:	who knows
Current Music:	All I Ask of You- Phantom

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? i dunno...a lot of things.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Ummm, maybe?

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? nope

4. Did anyone close to you die? Does my fish count? Cause I watched him die!

5. What countries did you visit? Price Chopper...I mean, none

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? a car and a better job

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? July 22, 2004...and he needs no explanation.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I'm lacking in the assertiveness department

9. What was your biggest failure? saying no

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I almost fainted at Price Chopper, does that count?

11. What was the best thing you bought? my digital camera

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Well, I didn't kill anyone :oP

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? I let someone see me cry...I hate that!

14. Where did most of your money go? Books

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? JOSHIE!

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? "The Reason"

17. What would you do if you met yourself? That wouldn't be awkward or anything... :oP

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? breathing...I didn't do that too often

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? dwelling

20. How will you be spending Christmas? Stayed here with the family, talked really loud and ate alot go food

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with? probably my mom...

22. Did you fall in love in 2004? HA!

23. How many one-night stands? HA!

24. What was your favorite TV program? Queer Eye for the Straight Guy!!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? not really...my cousin's boyfriend can take a leap, but that's about it...

26. What was the best book you read? A Bend in the Road...or Nora Roberts, because she's amazing!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? It wasn't really a discovery, but I grew to love and appreciate Joshie and his genre of music

28. What did you want and get? digital camera

29. What did you want and not get? there's one thing.

30. What was your favorite film of this year? this questions just not fair!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 19, went to a concert then a party and danced with a Jamacian...

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? not worrying about things I shouldn't worry about

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? whatever was clean?

34. What kept you sane? being able to escape school whenever I wanted

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most this year? Senor Bloom

36. What political issue stirred you the most? funny story, ask about it...it'll make you giggle

37. Who did you miss? friends from home while i was at school...and friends from school while i'm home...it's just a vicious cycle!

38. Who was the best new person you met? My Le Moyners...

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: don't try to make other people happy, because you'll end up being miserable. Don't wear your heart on you sleeve either...

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Let me fall
Let me climb
There’s a moment when fear
And dreams must collide

Someone I am
Is waiting for courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me

So let me fall
If I must fall
I won’t heed your warnings
I won’t hear them

Let me fall
If I fall
Though the phoenix may
Or may not rise

I will dance so freely
Holding on to no one
You can hold me only
If you too will fall

-"Let Me Fall"

Current Mood:	passing time
Current Music:	Dominic the Donkey- Lou Monte

Monday was rough. I think that's the first time ever that I cried all day. There was always something happening that day that brought me to tears. I had so much to do that day, my betta died which normally wouldn't be a big deal but I watched him die. That kind of disturbed me.

I felt like I had no where to go and no one to turn to. I was watching Joshie on tv...he made me cry even harder. It was like something had a hold of me and was choking me. I couldn't go to my friends, because they didn;t understand and I'm pretty sure they didn't care and I couldn't write anything because i was so upset taht my hands were shaking. Finally, I panicked and went upstairs and had a really long and wonderful talk with Lauren Rybak. Oh how I missed that girl! We talked for about 3 hours and I felt like a whole new person. Remind me I have to go visit more often! :)

Hmmmm, the rest of the week was a big blur of getting last minute work done, one of my Jumpstart kids drinking paint becuase his Jumpstart friend didn't tell him that when you have paint in a straw, you blow out, not in, eating 6 jars of baby food so that my 4 year olds could make snowglobes to bring home, discovering a new Joshie to love and stalk and the best thing EVER...Ice skating with Shell! :o) Definitely need to that again...minus the falling and bruising my elbow and knee part. Note to others: don't do that. It hurts :oP

But yes, what was going to start out as a bad week turned into a good one. Thank God. I was on the verge of another nervous breakdown.

Current Mood:	chipper
Current Music:	If- Joshua Payne

I'm so excited for Thanksgiving... 2 turkeys, a ham and 10 lbs of mashed potatoes does something good for the soul...or maybe it's just the Italians making too much food. Either way, I called the leftovers so I'm happy! The only thing missing is my partner in crime. Laur, you should really be here so that they don't gang up on me! :oP I miss you! :o* Christmas, baby! I called you first!!!

Mema's coming Thursday. That's exciting. :oD

So this was totally pointless...oh well. I'm on vacation. I don't need points. :oP

Molto Amore Amici!!

Current Mood:	over tired
Current Music:	Hold On- Good Charlotte...maybe?

-All my friends at school are seeing someone. They forgot that I exist. That kinda pissed me off...ok I lied. It pissed me off alot. I miss last year when we were all just friends.
-My computer died and I have no idea why. It had my Creative Writing story on it that was due Monday so I had to start over.
-Work is amazing. I love it to no end, but there are some things and someones on my team that's making it more stressful than it has to be.
-My roommate doesn't know when to keep her mouth shut. Or how to grow up. That's kinda annoying too.
-There aren't enough hours in the day to do everything that I need to do. Someone should fix it.

So I guess that's the most of it. Up until Thursday, I was completely miserable. But then things started looking up.

Thursday I had the whole day off because Neil decided to cancel class. For that, I hate him a little less. I basically did nothing. It was wonderful. Everyone should have a day off! :oP After work, I started watching 'Butterfly Effect' with my roommate then got called to dinner and I missed my Nathan. I'M SORRY!!!!! Remember you love me! ;o) But the best part came when I went to go see 'Much Ado About Nothing' with none other then my favorite Michelle Frateschi! We had a date, it was wonderful!! We're going to start stalking a Joshie impersonator. That should be interesting ;o) The play was amazing...it's incredible what happens outside the world of Davo Theatre...
I'm proposing we have Thursday night dates more often!!

Yesterday was great too! We went to visit the boys and all ended up on one bed watching Armegedon...the way things used to be. I almost missed getting squished by the boys... :oP Then they laughed at me because Ben Affleck was crying. Dumb boys.

Anyways, the point is, one small thing like seeing an old friend for a couple hours on a Thursday night or watching a movie with friends can instantly switch a mood in a split second. I like being happy a lot more than I like being grumpy!!

Current Mood:	rejuvenated
Current Music:	True- Ryan Cabrera

Since my last update, my mood has cheered up alot. Thanks to Emily for interjecting and taking me away for a while! I really needed it. :o) I'm still working on this major thing. I know now that I definitely want to switch. I can't take english anymore. If every English professor was like Mrs. Weiss then I'd consider it, but they're not and right now, I just want to crawl in hole and hide from Shakespeare and Poetry. It's not something for me and even though it took 3 semesters to figure it out, I'm glad I did so that I can do something that I really like. So I got to thinking...I'm in love with Dr. Phil...and his son :oP I love his shows. One of my friends and I literally sit there and diagnose his patients before he does and it's best time ever! Not to mention I've been playing 'Anne Landers' as my aunt calls it to my friends. I like helping people, it makes me feel good...even though they dont' listen! SO I'm seriously considering Psych for a major. It won't put me too far behind because I'm ahead an Education class so that'll give me an extra slot 2 semesters from now. So I'm just waiting on the Department Heads to email me back so I can go talk to them and get the hell out of English!

I had a mean streak this past week, and I have to tell you...it felt good! I said some cynical things, my personal favorite being "here's the backbone you wanted me to grow, now shove it up your ass!" ...so I didn't say it directly to her but I still said it!! I guess it's just that time. I never used to say anything because I was afraid of what people would say back...and I have confrontation. But there just comes a time when you have to stop letting people walk all over you and tell them to back off! And plus, being means kinda fun! O:o)

Works wonderful! I'm still getting used to being head of a group of college kids and I'll admit, I'm not all that great at it but one of the reasons why I applied was because I want to get better at being a leader. My team works really well together. They all seem to like each other for the most part and they're all excited about starting with the kids soon. We had our first meeting yesterday. It didn't go exactly as I planned and I wish that more people would have paid attention to me and helped with ideas a stuff. I would suggest something, be like "what do you guys think?" ::blank stares:: "is that OK with everyone?" ::more blank stares and the occasional nod:: I felt like they didn't take me serious and that kinda made me angry. Am I not intimidating?!

In the good news category...The little girl I'm tutoring for Education absolutely LOVES me! ...and I love her too. Her names Jenasia and she's the cutest 4th grader EVER! I love inner city kids...they're so funny. That's where I want to go, I decided.

That's about it for now. Can't wait to see you all again...I need my normal friends back!!

<3 always
Lynni

Current Mood:	cheerful
Current Music:	Si Volvieras a Mi- Joshie

This summer was an almost complete flop. A lot of it had to do with Price Chopper and you all know because I complained about it nonstop. :oP The weather didn't cooperate. I got my first sunburn 2 days ago. It was so long I didn't think it would end! Maybe it was because of work, maybe it was the weather. But I think a lot of it had to do with my friends at school. I'm sure you've heard this phrase before... "It was like quitting cold turkey and that's a bad idea!" Those kids...let me tell you. I love them so much. I was the first to go home while they were still all at school. The first couple of days I wandered around in a cloud and looked at the same 10 pictures nonstop. It wasn't fun! I hope I'm not the only one who felt that way...

But it did have it's perks.

-Me and Amy stealing the show at Troy because we love our Orlando just that much ;o)
-Going to the Fair with Kev Lynette and Nick. The concert was FUN!! ;oP
-Christmas in July. I <3 my family...and New Kids on the Block
-Random road trip with Shelly
-Gelato with my favorite Katy Ferguson
-Sister's Day at Darien Lake and Mema's "I killed the neighbor!" :oD

and of course...

-Seeing Joshie at Darien Lake. I'll never listen to his music the same again. He makes me want to have his children. I'm in love. :o)

But now that it's over, I'm ready to go back to my friends at school. I missed them more than I could ever say. I'm excited about taking Shakespeare, Creative Writing, Education at a middle school and being a Jumpstart Team Leader. I'm ready to be a mom again ;o)

I won't be at Starburst because of work training in NYC so have fun for me. I'll see you all sometime. Have a great first semester. :o*

<3Lynni

Current Mood:	thoughtful
Current Music:	that stupid JoJo song